ukirsari ... chtobi ne bilo to k luchshemu

>> s novim godom <<

2006-12-07T13:41:00.000Z

patron of saint anthony in macau (c) ukirsari

~ pretigge kerstdagen een gelukkig nieuwjaar everyone. wish you all the best. we'll away for december holiday in secluded beaches and foothills of famous mountaineous range and visit the rhinos so does the beautiful dolphins. crossing fingers for our trips ~

holy mother mary in sao dominic church (c) ukirsari

>> noite e dia <<

2006-11-17T15:50:00.000Z

in front of ruinas do sao paulo (c) nicholas ingram

noite e dia,
portuguese for night and day
yes within a night and day, i already fell in love with old quarter of macau
walking along the cobblestones
visiting the churches
feel the wind's blowing
autumn has came
it's in modern era
passed the second millenium
but the cobblestones
absorbed the old histories of a-ma gau

humming about "se" that performed by josh groban
i feel the same ....
e cio che provo e solamente amore. and what i sense it’s only love ....

in the concorde's cabin (c) ukirsari

>> awaiting december hols <<

2006-11-13T15:01:00.000Z

puffin and dalphin winter hols

@rie with our american friends in chek lap kok island (c) nicholas ingram

nicholas with our serbian friends in venice (c) ukirsari

>> i am so proud of him <<

2006-10-19T16:20:00.000+01:00

* this is his enchanting posting at www.concordesst.com *

Visited Le Bourget Museum on Friday 13/10/06.
author: nicholasingram [member]

Wow!!!! Sierra Delta looks immaculate!! The best condition Concorde I have seen so far. Looks like new!

& Lucky me because the museum was empty.

Inside the Concorde Hall I was approached by ex Air France Concorde Engineer, Pascal (worked on Concorde for 15 years) who told me to wait around because in 10mins time they would be powering up Sierra Delta and I would be able to get some shots of visor down, and the nose being drooped. Cool!!!

They are able to run a generator outside the hall and bring cables across to provide power to Concorde.

10 minutes later........navigation lights on.....tail, wing tips, egde of the wing etc........then landing lights on. Then I get a private demo from their engineering team testing visor down and droop nose positions until I have all the photos I need and then they keep asking if I'd like them to run the sequence again. That was nice!!!

After that I got invited to visiit the cockpit and sit in the first officers seat of Sierra Delta with all the cockpit instruments illuminated. How spooky to sit there with everything powered up 3 years after the fleet had been retired.......(very hot in the cockpit too!!) and finally when the power went off.......warning gong/chime sounds.......just like on "Concorde An Interpid Journey" DVD.

Pascal (President of the team working on Sierra Delta) told me by 2009 the plan is that Sierra Delta will be in flying condition with all systems fully working WOW!!!

Unfortunately my French isn't that good and Pascals English was a bit limited but is anyone from the forum involved / have contact with the engineering team working on Sierra Delta?

They have a website and are looking for support (I don't have the link with me but will post later). You can join them for 20euros per year and that includes free unlimited admission to Le Bourget.

I would suggest to anyone thinking of visiting that they contact Pascal before hand to check if they will be able to power up Sierra Delta for you. I think they can do something like that for groups of enthusiasts.

What a pity BA couldn't have allowed something like this.

But I guess that makes Sierra Delta unqiue!! Ignore the critics who say SD and 001 are couped up in that hanger.......they both look like they are very very well cared for.

Also visited FF at CDG Terminal 2..........no problem taking photos and looks great lit up at night!!!

>> how love it should be <<

2006-10-13T12:47:00.000+01:00

* ukirsari, nicholas, rika, ivo [automaticly taken]*

pada akhirnya, kita akan sampai pada suatu hari yang biasa
[soe hok gie]

finally, we will find an ordinary day. a very plain day -- not an emotional day, but something nice which already captured deeply in our hearts
so, there's nothing surprise or big shock, but it's following all of our steps through the all days we have

i share my life with people i love. and i already stop thinking about anything who has no relation with my life. i am not a brand new person, but i "adore" my life more than anything in the world. and in my life it's contain with people to whom i included them in my daily pray

i am not fancy to be someone nor reach a status, but i know how to manage and spend my days and create them --fulfilled with happiness

mon Dieu! i love you, life. my life :)

small notes
- landed at charles de gaulle airport
- visit a sister of concorde gboaa 01
- find a small-comfy place just like santa croce in venice, in academia region
- landed at macau international airport
- visit largo do senado and se
- stay in augusters
- depart from jetfoil exterior [not lagos van nam]
- visit rare-endangered pinky dolphins in pearl river delta
- hiking on new territories
- sailing around aberdeen [not repulse bay]
- listening to the noon day gun
- home for new year's eve

temporary notes
maybe this is not a necessary note [for myself], but i want to write down here as a new start to leave anything bad behind. this is dedicated to someone or more than one who has 'smokey' lips. who has narrow-minded brain [opppssss]. who count me with words as follows "oh, long time ago, you looks more skinny and seems not so many times been in travels."
well, this is my statement: yes. long time ago, i look more skinny, with stupid bones and not going travel as much as i have now, since i have to share my money for feeding someone who only can ask and never give. and treat me as an atm gallery! person who insisted "this is love, this is love, this is love [rephrase from bob marley's 'is this love, is this love, is this love']" but i realize what's a bollock statement and the taste just like fried sausages in castrol oil [bleaaaahhhhhh!!!!]. but thank God, it's over now :)

>> home again ... renew passport <<

2006-09-20T10:21:00.000+01:00

* we just landed in zurich (c) ukirsari *

* enchanting shwedagon paya at night, yangon (c) ukirsari *

me: morning, sir!
officer: hi, come in ... please sit down. actually your passport is about expired or there's no space anymore for the stamps? [checking the old one and check my fingerprints and id picture are being transfered from other room]
me: [thinking, "huh?!!" but can give him a smile]. well, actually my expiration date is next 8 months ahead, but with my responsibility i want to make it earlier.
officer: so you'll go abroad again?
me: [oh dear] yes, seems so, i will [smile again]

then i remember something .... nice to think about how my beloved ones trying to talk a better bahasa indonesia. including chit-chat in immigration ... but in return, the officer "kindly" ask him in very polite way, "do you have something for me?" oh God, gimme a break x-( and the most crazy thing, his answer was, "oh ada! mau kopi?" what? but allright, nothing happened here. at least i can pass this renew passport successfully!

* piazzeta di san marco at night, venice(c)nicholas ingram *

>> great news while away from home <<

2006-08-11T17:35:00.000+01:00

posted by romanb in thorn tree lonely planet

June photo comp winners and runners-up

Hi all

It's been a tough competition to judge - thanks to everyone who joined in the fun. We've chosen a winner and runners-up for both the Africa and Asia categories. Hopefully we'll have an LP.com photo gallery up on the site soon.

* bianglala di atas giza (c) ukirsari *

AFRICA

the winning entry
kl123

the runners-up
bsmart
chriskean1
Craig_Schuler
hacme
jlhurst
kingdoomy
luzerne
mojcek
pandelef
rdlm
sachar
* ukirsari * [entitled: bianglala di atas giza]
uspn

~ thank God for this gift and no matter about win or lose, i dedicated this picture to beloved nicholas, my only travel companion and soulmate ~

>> dalphin is reporting live <<

2006-08-11T15:38:00.000+01:00

[in flight meals (c) ukirsari]

"xxxAir from Southend was not affected by terror threat warning since only have xxxAir and x1 flight per week to Jersey. When the plane lands or takesoff the road must be tutup at the end of the runway. Very nice though ... no queue ... plane parked outside the building and walk straight out ... almost as if it were a private jet. Leather seats and the food (most important thing for Puffin) hmmmmmmmmm quite nice and served on china. Puffin!!! Flight time only 50mins ... Puffin need makan?"

>> a blessed year <<

2006-08-04T15:33:00.000+01:00

[tunku abdul rahman marine park, kota kinabalu (c) ukirsari]

this year seems becomes a year where we'll [and already] travel a lot. and coincidence [again and again] meet a person with the same name during the trip. just remind us towards beloved 'kapitan' paul nikolaus. now we "have" nikolas :)

puffin - dalphin's summer-fall/autumn hols

so, within a year, start from december 2005 - december 2006 [and january 2007] we got [and will get]:

[arthur seat with ediburgh monument (c) nicholas ingram]

indonesia: bali - lombok - flores, bali - lombok - sumbawa
philippines: manila - vigan - corregidor island
scotland: edinburgh
malaysia: kuala lumpur - kinabalu
singapore
germany: frankfurt - hannover
italy: venice
myanmar: yangon - syriam - thanlyn - kyauktan - mandalay
indonesia: not decided yet, enjoy these plan first and already done 70% from total :)

batavia cafe after thousand island trip 1

2006-07-05T14:36:00.000+01:00

batavia cafe after thousand island trip 1
Originally uploaded by manggalani.

mirror, mirror on the wall .... who is the most beautiful woman in the world? asked step-mother of the snow white.
that's part of our childhood bedtime story.
and this is not part of the story, but the mirror, yes, we can ask ... who are the most crazy person with "weird" clothes to enter such a world class cafe like batavia with trainers and tee-shirts? :)
and picturing themselves automaticly with sasha-smash-sha digicam.
thanks for a wonderful weekend, :N

>> summer has came <<

2006-05-12T15:57:00.000+01:00

puffin - dalphin

dalphin - puffin

>> yes, i am. falling in love <<

2006-04-25T12:33:00.000+01:00

* morning broken over rawa pening (c) ukirsari

volar caer
al fondo el dolor
sonar perder
imperios de ilusion
hoy no tengo nada
si no estas
mi corazon se apaga

* saint paul cathedral vigan (c) ukirsari

* coffee mills (c) ukirsari

isabel
si te vas
tu dios se enfadara
no dejes que este amor
muera asi
llorare iloraras
sufriendo en soledad
vuelve a mi y yo te hare feliz
isabel

* night over crisologo street, vigan (c) ukirsari

* deepa and @rie in front of manila cathedral (c) francois

* playing gamelan (c) ukirsari

buscar sentir
la gran pasion de amar
tratar de huir
a ese tiempo que vendra
escapando del pasado
tu y yo siempre enamorados

* a unique mike potenciano's souvenir (c) ukirsari

hoy no tengo nada
si no estas
mi corazon se apage

* tengger massif crater rim (c) ukirsari

* a lady in bandungan flower market (c) ukirsari

* saint paul's chapel (c) ukirsari

isabel
a donde iras sin mi
yo no sabre vivir
sin ti

* in segenter (c) ukirsari

isabel
a donde iras si mi
yo no sabre vivir
sin ti

* stubby longganisa (c) ukirsari

* ubud padi terraces (c) ukirsari

isabel
si te vas
tu dios se enfadara
no dejes que este amor
muera asi
llorare iloraras
sufriendo en soledad
tu vuelve a mi y yo te haré feliz
isabel

* performed by il divo in their album: ancora *
** all pictures (c) ukirsari **

>> that's so called love! <<

2006-04-25T11:59:00.000+01:00

who is ukirsari?
"love to travel, love to be backpacker, love to learn about life, love to learn about commitments, old buildings and ruins, histories, heritages, marine life, languages and other arts and cultures. i leave nothing but footprints and keep nothing but memories ...."

[taken from my personal info in world 66. red marks indicated i'd been there already]

create your own visited country map
or write about it on the open travel guide

>> after 25 years <<

2006-03-08T15:27:00.000Z

* marcus harris. since i get this photograph personally, i would like to thank a lot for marcus. and for everyone, please do not use this picture for any reasons without his permission *

alam dan sang waktu mengatur
bagaimana hari mesti dijalani
sebagaimana pertemuan dan perpisahan
dan segala impian tak berkesudahan

[times and natures give the paths
how the days should be passing
the same as finding and going in this life
and also for a neverending dream]

+ ukirsari, 08032006

take this 'today's writing' as a continuity from my last posting. about childhood dreams. as i realize, we asked two and we got one. we just only have one and keep it alive for a long time. and in the end, still hoping one of the dreams will come true someday.

today is one of the most beautiful days in my life. after such a long awaiting, try to get a connection to my childhood dream ... voila ... this is marcus harris! my beloved julian kirrin from the famous five. he wrote e-mail personally for me! thanks a million, marcus :)

Hi Arie

Thanks for this and I am so pleased to hear that you got so much from the series and indeed from the character of Julian. I was and indeed still am a big fan of the F5 myself and it was a dream come true for me to be given the part, it was two years living the dream. I am a business man now but Gary (Dick) and I still do various events in Germany and the UK where we talk about life in the Famous five. I am sorry if I didn't reply to your letters back then, I didn't get to see them all and mostly they were handled for me, however I must take my share of responsibility and say at that time we received sackfulls each day and as a 15/16year old it was a daunting as Double Maths for homework despite being much more enjoyable. However no excuses and I'm pleased to make amends with this email. By all means use it on your blog.

Best of luck with your career, it sounds fascinating and thank you for taking the trouble to track me down.

Best wishes
Marcus Harris

PS Attached is a photograph taken last year at one of the German F5 conventions

>> think of me fondly when we've said goodbye <<

2005-08-29T18:43:00.000+01:00

pictures left to right: ukirsari in a super puma H-3203 and nicholas in a vulcan XL 426 (c) manggalani-brodjokaloso and ingram

Think of me
Think of me fondly when we've said goodbye
Remember me
Once in a while, please promise me you'll try.
When you find
That once again you long to take your heart back and be free,
If you ever find a moment spare a thought for me.

We never said our love was evergreen
Or as unchanging as the sea.
But if you can still remember
Stop and think of me.
Think of all the things we've shared and seen,
Don't think about the way things might've been.

Think of me,
Think of me waking, silent and resigned.
Imagine me
Trying too hard to put you from my mind.
Recall those days, look back on all those times,
Think of the things we'll never do.
There will never be a day when I won't think of you!

* taken from: http://www.metrolyrics.com/lyrics/359238177/Phantom_Of_The_Opera/ *

>> small words is enuf .... <<

2005-08-02T17:21:00.000+01:00

keindahan persahabatan adalah bahwa kamu tahu kepada siapa kamu dapat mempercayakan rahasia [alessandro manzoni]

>> con te partiro <<

2005-07-18T19:14:00.000+01:00

picture: @rie after interviewing an indonesian female singer paula allodya item a.k.a audy and her dad jopie item (c) raditya oka

[pakai bahasa indonesia ya? rindu berbahasa kita -- walau bahasa inggris saya juga blow on dan go block sekali ~ oh oh, my way in talking now influenced by bloody british style and cockney rhyming :)]

time to say goodbye
waktu untuk berkata "selamat berpisah"
bukan masalah selamat tinggal atau selamat jalan nya
tapi dalam artian tidak bertemu lagi dalam waktu yang lama
atau bahkan untuk selamanya
-- mengapa harus begitu? tanya nurani saya. lha memang sudah jalannya dan seharusnya, ungkap sisi rasional saya --

di rapat siang tadi [yang saya sudah tidak konsentrasi lagi karena rindu dalphin sekaligus lapar, karena sepagian hanya berbagi setangkup roti isi selai strawberry dengan oka], membaca kompas selagi ted presentasi customizing freaks dan carscity [apa ya maksudnya, kok tidak pernah mudeng total dengan terminologi ini, hahahha, @rie bisa saja mengelak]. menyimak artikel mbak maria [maria hartiningsih] tentang gunawan ilham yang dulu dicekal karena gestapo, padahal sudah mau berangkat meneruskan studi di negeri belanda. kata beliau --pak ilham-- bijak, kekesalan akan masa lalu membuat tubuh bisa menderita sakit fisik. berdamai dengan masa lalu mungkin sulit, seperti juga melupakan. tapi membiarkannya tanpa berpikir lagi akan jadi energi positif.
oh, mirip pemikiran saya ya. ini flat dan datar. plain tanpa bumbu dan penyedap.
biarkan ada orang cerewet menyatakan jangan salah pilih dengan apa yang saya maui, mengatakan saya pemimpi terbang ke lapisan awan paling atas [di mana itu batasnya? troposfer, stratosfer, ionosfer >> wah, guru sd saya pasti akan terharu kalau tahu satu muridnya ini masih fasih mengingat pelajarannya yang sudah berlalu sekian puluh tahun << big smile!].

ya ini sudah tahap con te partiro
memasuki tahap terjauh
dan tidak ada titik kembali lagi

saya masih ingat saat dalphin mendapatkan pelajaran menyelamnya pertama kali
masuk dalam kolam hijau menjijikkan dekat supermal di essex dan diberi tugas mengumpulkan segala macam benda dan mencatatnya pakai whiteboard di situ dengan spidol tahan air.
mirip dengan papa. tapi beliau open water langsung.
namanya juga tentara, harus tahan banting.
dan kenang-kenangannya indah. membubuhkan tandatangan di whiteboard pakai spidol tahan air di petang hari perairan laut banda. hmmm!!
dan menyoal kursus menyelamnya dalphin,
setelah lulus, pertama kali melakukan open water di bunaken, master diving nya membimbing tangannya. terus, menyelusuri pinggiran shallow water dan menunjukkan trench,
palung yang gelap tanpa melepaskan tangannya sekalipun, untuk memastikan dalphin baik-baik saja.
dalam hal ini tentu saja tak ada unsur kecemburuan apapun terjadi pada saya, karena kekasih saya melakukannya agar selamat, ini bukan masalah cinta lokasi atau apapun
[hmmm, justru saya lebih memikir pada ... kapan saya bisa diving dengan benar, karena untuk snorkeling bersama saja, kami berdua punya bumbu kemarahan di sana-sini ... apalagi kalau bukan careless puffin. menginjak duri babi, salah menentukan sudut datang, atau menabrak jajaran ikan teri hingga mereka menghilang ketakutan ... sampai menarik kerang tanpa sengaja]

oh, balik lagi ke topik
tak ada yang membimbing saya secara fisik melewati hari-hari sulit macam pinggiran palung yang dilalui dalphin
tapi orang tua saya, secara mempesona dan begitu indah sudah melakukannya
jarak jauh
dan dalphin datang mendekat
dengan diving clothes dan aqualungnya
dan selamatlah saya
dan berbahagialah saya
tulus
merasakan keindahan
begitu transparan
terang
sama nikmatnya terapung-apung dengan fins dan masker
tak peduli saya kerap terkena water trapped
hingga pernyataan dalphin "treads water, not drowning into water" kadang terdengar almost impossible :)

lalu,
hari ini saya menyadari
mesti mengucapkan selamat berpisah
pada tali name tag saya
yang sudah menemani sekian lama
termasuk tugas-tugas ke luar negeri saya
tak ada palung lagi bakal kami lalui bersama
tapi kenangan antarkami selalu ada

dan sebagian kenangan
ada yang saya bekukan
[bukan soal tali name tag ini]
karena kepercayaan saya
tak semuanya
wajib menghuni
rumah batin saya
dan percayalah
segala yang terlupa juga bakal jadi indah
tanpa pernah memikir
betapa culas dan burukhati orang itu melakukannya atas saya
karena ia punya keterbatasan pemahaman
dan ketidakpunyaan
hingga ketika ia mendapatkannya
melupakan
bahwa sayalah pemilik yang sejatinya
seperti mama bilang
: menyadari tetap bagian dari sublimasi diri yang hakiki, kadang sulit adanya
apalagi bila budaya yang ia miliki tidak begitu. serba kekurangan, serba mengais, serta menisbikan harga diri
[oh mum, beautiful and excellent words i ever hear in my life. i miss you and i love you. sedang bikin sarapan saat ini, ya? :)]

saya bahagia
bersama dalphin
dan baby
dan vaddiszno
dan semua orang rumah saya

karena saya selalu punya cinta
dan rumah
kediaman
tempat tinggal
bagi batin saya

amien

* pagi tadi, sebelum mengedit ini, saya makan pagi. with concorde's cutlerey. from teaspoon to fork. from spoon to knife [sempat tertawa dalam hati, di saat dalphin sudah bisa makan nasi dengan sendok, saya bersikukuh menyuap nasi dengan garpu. i don't like spoon, except for soup. nasi lebih enak dengan garpu atau tangan!]. dan saya bau yardley cokelat lagi. hmmmmmmmmmmm. Tuhan saya sungguh tahu, kapan menikmati karuniaMu. dengan cara yang cuma saya, dia dan Kau mengerti :) selamat pagi dunia *

>> java jive, karimun java ... lost treasure hidden jewel of java .... <<

2005-06-20T14:35:00.000+01:00

picture: puffin and dalphin on jetfoil, ready to sail to semarang's harbour tanjung emas from beloved karimunjawa (c) manggalani-brodjokaloso and ingram

* malam kian terasa, larut dan dingin ... hasrat pun ingin terus bersama, sinar bulan yang terang berbayang, terbias indah di matamu, oh .... hingga tiada satu kata yang bisa kuucapkan, biar kau tahu yang kurasakan, getar jiwa ... terguncang buaikan bersatu genggam di jarimu .... inikah gerangan cinta yang menghiasi kisah manusia sepanjang masa ....*[java jive, gerangan cinta, 1995]

seems just yesterday ... puffin and dalphin start their nice holiday in the 'lost hidden treasure' of java >> karimunjawa. literally in javanese means "the shadow imagine from million distance away place of java mainland". every single beaches here is treasure, always give their own scenery. never be the same, laying in among 27 small islands. dalphin said, like in la dique, praline or somewhere in seychelles. and puffin replied "can be anywhere in the equator line or tropical areas but it was surprised since still in the area of java."

puffin got her first snorkelling with beloved dalphin and dolphino a.k.a dolfino. bites by spiky ones so called "duri babi" and got panic. but it's nothing compared with palm trees, sunrise and sunset, coral reefs in conservation, floating cabin, our "welcome" thunderstorm and high tide, seafood meals, sea creatures from shark, jellyfish, stingray [not yet mantaray, sweetheart puffin :)], starfish, anchovy, crabs, hawksbill turtle, pelican and hornbill and meet our baby ikan belutak or number one enemy jabba the hutt. puffin did remember very well, asking dalphin's binoculars to see the craters in the half moon and laying on the pier. enjoy every single moment whenever electricity shut-down and singing "this little piggy going to the market, this little piggy stayed at home, this little piggy got roasted beef, this little piggy had none and this little piggy run all the way homeeeeeeeee". anything great, even dalphin had dependency into glyco 2 mg and puffin have to eat 'rabbit drops' 2 - 3 times per day and both of us got halucination [caused by the medicines] .... green mice and hand weaving and glittering of everything :D

in 1995, java jive launched their masterpiece 'gerangan cinta' [is this love?] and the charming lyrics made me half drunken about. i mean, how can be so 'glittering' and warm if you have that feeling, no matter if 'the world will ended tomorrow' nor 'the earth will divided into 2'. just flowing like puffin learn from dalphin about snorkelling and everything will be fine. 10 years after java jive's great song ... i have my own gerangan cinta and i know how to be grateful. thanks for unforgetable birthday gift, dalphin. i love you so much!!!!!!

>> before sunrise and before sunset <<

2005-05-23T15:09:00.000+01:00

picture: @rie in front of san marco [piazza de san marco], venice (c) ukirsari

~ there's nothing in love but pain [rabindranath tagore]
~ there's nothing remain but love. only love [only love, eric segal]

* can love find a way?
yes. can be. one of the appearance i found in my most memorable fave love story movies after "love story" [based upon eric segal's best seller] and "onegin": "before sunrise" [1995] and "before sunset" [2005]. i did enjoy watching young jesse [ethan hawke] and celine [julie delpy] and whenever i read about newly made richard linklater's on dvd counters i just feel "oh, finally .... do jesse and celine get a succesful reunion?". always ambiguity inside my heart: buy this sequel indie movie to complete my before sunrise or not? because i feel ... i will disappointed if the result is not as i predict before [read as: i am afraid with the reality :)]. always arguing myself 'till i decided to buy 2 days ago.
still brilliant director linklater [state-of-the art scene of beautiful paris -- before taken in vienna, 9 years ago, just need few actors, just depend on available light, full of dialogues] that make this movie so alive. and of course about the storyline itself. reading in several review [and now my wallpaper is 'before sunset' with sound on ...] that linklater writing the plot together with hawke and delpy. it's so cool.
i found ... in several ways. jesse and celine, they keep their love. maybe not sharing to each other in normal way, but i found something perfect in unperfect condition [already married, but understand to each other there's nothing about affair and second chance, just want to share the moment].
how many unconditional love already happened in my life?
~ the vienna train station remind me of mulhousieville >> the "embankment" after crossing the borderline of switzerland by sncf
~ not in between lovers like jesse-celine's condition, but i do miss my fellows in the train during my eurorail trip: lea [pescara], caroline [basel], lionel [wuppertal], pavel [amsterdam], mirko [antwerp to spa-francorchamps], simone [lyon-part-dieu to milano centrale], karin [paris] and the old lady from brugge [bruxelles]
~ parisian cul-de-sac .... still linger on my mind nowadays, whenever i am walking or crossing the roads here in my place
~ i am glad ... to be loved as to love, with all my heart [taken from medic doc roe's night prayer in bandy]

>> snow fall on the cedars a.k.a malam indah <<

2005-05-17T11:32:00.000+01:00

picture: deodar cedar, the icon of state of himachal pradesh. taken at annandale hill, shimla (c) ukirsari

ethan hawke on tv last night. about ishmael chambers with his eternal love. even the japanese girl, hatsue married to other. something across in my mind: it's about the love itself, up to the person to carry on, forget it, forgive it or take it with themselves forever.
suddenly a surprise sms from my beloved ones. go shopping there somewhere in rainbow. a list of my birthday gifts. i know how to be grateful. they're:
- dolphino mask and fins
- big blue dvd
- around the world in 80 days, world of journeys by bbc on vcd
- michael pallin's full circle, by bbc on dvd
- michael pallin's book 'himalaya' by bbc
- 3 pairs of socks in my fave colours bluey, dark blue and purpley stripey by thighsgalore

and i said, "you're spoil me, sweetheart." and his answer just, "but this is your birthday." hmmmmmm, my heart just melt so sudden. i know i am not kind of girlfriend that mention this and that. his presence will be >> from far away place, i give highly appreciate. doesn't mean to look back my past, but what you think if you get everything you ever dream about a man for you. not macho look but a kindhearted. give a surprise and fully understand about your hobby and interest. sharing expenses in exact 'rate' 50-50 or make your turn and my turn but never cheat on you. give you maximum support and encouragement words to be the one you want to be? :)
i love him. make me smile and ethan hawke's snow fall on the cedars becomes more beautiful than ever. perfect and excellent. and becomes amazing love story. not in term make me cry, but "nice".

Tuhan ku, ya Allah ... i am so blessed and happy and matur nuwun sanget. with all my heart. with all my heart!!!

>> thebes <<

2005-04-28T19:41:00.000+01:00

pictures: puffin with horus (c) ingram nicholas, dalphin and horus (c) manggalani - brodjokaloso ukirsari, thebes, egypt

aku menuliskan namamu
pada dinding-dinding batu
biban el muluk
dan mendaki hingga ke puncaknya
merasai waktu sedemikian lembam
mengamati sepasang sepeda dikayuh dalam kejauhan pandang
bulir-bulir pasir menari
di thebes

selarik sinar surya
bingkisan dari sang dewa matahari
amon-re
ra

pemampatan udara
pemanasan muka bumi
dan terdengar tangis
di gerbang colossi of memnon
maat-kau-re
ra-setep-meri-amen
memnon sang legenda
yang tertebas pedang achilles
di medan laga troy

sampai berapa lama sepeda dikayuh
melintasi ladang tebu
padang-padang pasir
katakombe-katakombe kuno
bersalib ankh; coptic cross
meyimak ayat-ayat yang tergores
dwibahasa arab dan yunani
saint tawdros al marsekiy

bersama pasir aku menyesapi
hikayat-hikayat masa lalu
penaklukan pharaoh ramses II
keagungan pharaoni perempuan hatshepsut
yang menolak dirinya ditahbiskan sebagai ratu
karena lelaki dan perempuan sejajar hakekatnya: penguasa tak mengenal kelamin
sama dengan kebenaran
tanpa perbedaan
mutlak adanya
satu

aku menuliskan namamu
pada dinding-dinding batu
biban el muluk
di segenap perbukitan padas seantero thebes
pada perkampungan orang-orang bedouin
mencatat setiap detik cintamu mengalir dalam darahku
menyumblim dalam partikel-partikel oksigen yang kuhirup
di thebes

aku rindukan dirimu
dalam kebersamaan jiwa hakiki
tanpa keharusan kehadiran wadag
seperti cinta dewi isis pada dewa osiris
mengumpulkan sayat demi sayat daging tubuh suaminya
yang dihabisi para satria kegelapan
dicacah dijadikan makanan hewan air di sungai el nil
menjadikannya sempurna kembali
dan mempersembahkan horus sebagai putra mereka

aku menuliskan namamu
pada dinding-dinding batu
biban el muluk
merindukanmu selalu
dan menggarisbawahi
makna cinta yang ada

(c) ukirsari, abela aegypt sleepers 04012005

>> utah, omaha and now gold, juno, sword <<

2005-04-19T06:31:00.000+01:00

picture is about front cover of normandy d-day landings by derek blizard, copied by ukirsari not in term to be used to other party and anykind publicity!

morning sweetheart :)

now i understand, why i look so bloon if our topic is about the whole of operation: overlord. the names which are so dearly for me always utah and omaha. the rest o-ow princess @rie stupid! and i just found the answer!!! this morning, reading my beloved d-day normandy landings by derek blizard. these gold-juno-sword known as "british beaches". gold and juno operated by british xxx corps and juno by canadian division [ps: no wonder, the writer also a briton guy ;) my references made-in usa :D].
and the main DZ was st aubin-sur-mer, which is ... for me, i feel more familiar to pronounce st marie du mont and st mere aglise in utah :D [another is paris-st-germain on my way from paris to milan :D]
well, well ... so, i had nice conversation with dad after. and i was say sorry ... [i mean it, even dad never take it as a serious topic] >> how i like bandy and i hear sometimes dad's arguments, "hmmmm, the paratroopers. the embankment of the navy by the sea also breathtaking. you should read about it and find me about d-day movies with entry point shorelines of normandy." yeah. you know bloody stubborn me and "oh dad, please accept it. the mini series is about airborne division."
and he's right .... and we laugh >> yeah, only movie but i feel wowww ... uhum and i know you'll also smile whenever read this and across in your mind "oh burung hantu kecil ku, you never believe me about juno-gold-sword."
i did and more. danke schon ya dalphin ku :) ich liebe dich, liebe auf denn ersten blitz ;) und kuss mich wach! ein ... zwei ... drei .... hahahahaa!!!!

>> Jakhan bhanglo milan mela <<

2004-07-01T06:28:00.000+01:00

picture: @rie on the way to rashtraphati bhavan, the presidential palace of new delhi, india (c) ukirsari

When our days together
Came to an end,
My weeping would never cease –
I thought.

As flowers from a garland
Fall unheeded
On the dust of the road –
One by one –
So, memories fade,
Unknown to us,
Day by day.

No more tears
Would ever fall –
I thought.

We met on the wayside
All of a sudden –
And my crying I couldn’t stop.

Under the mantle of forgetfulness
The tears were there –
All the time.

[Rabindranath Tagore, Geetamalika 1; Geetabitan, Prem ~ transcreated by Sovana Dasgupta]

Selamat Pagi Cinta [Morning, Love]

2004-06-02T16:40:00.000+01:00

uhuuuuu, what will across in your mind whenever you go to search engine, type your own name and then find many many 'destination' which put your name into them? first, if you know you're already publish them by your own is cool, fine, okay. second; but if not? well, as long as the person consider to put my name as the author, never mind. i'm happy to make people smile, inspired and fulfilled. 2 of them already in bloggers: sarah [www.juniors.blogspot.com] and atta [www.negeri-senja.com]. wow!
one, i rewrite here 'selamat pagi cinta' [morning, love]. to remember someone outta there. i completely finished with this small piggy-wiggy poem on jan 28, a perfect moment to be me again ... after flying to his 'home' at rainbow. a land behind the mist. and to whom i told, 'love doesn't mean to be together forever'. i miss you, sometimes. and i still keep your big shadowey lovey dovey heart in southend-on-sea sky in my compie :) thanks for the red arrows who send it to me!

~ Selamat pagi Cinta ~
[Morning, Love]

Aku perbincangkan cinta
Kepada siapa aku merasai
Keindahan pun kesedihan
Hal-hal yang membangunkan aku
Dari mimpi malam
Dan merasai embun pagi
[I tell about love
For whom I can feel this thing
Something sweet or bitterness
The things that make me awake
From a night dream
To feel the morning dew]

Pada siapa aku bagikan
Segala kehangatan hati
Merasai diri tidaklah sendiri
Melainkan senantiasa dalam kebersamaan
Bernama cinta
[To whom I am sharing
The warmest feeling inside my heart
Since I feel not lonely
But always into togetherness
Called love]

Bersama keluargaku
Orang-orang terkasih
Semua yang kukenal
Maupun belum
Karena cinta milik siapa saja
Pada semua kita berbagi
[With my beloved family
People I love
Everyone I knew
Or not yet know
Because love is belong to everyone
That's what we shared about]

written by:
Rr.Ukirsari Manggalani Brodjokaloso